It's been a while since I've seen you but only moments since you've been on my mind. Today was like every day... I awoke from a dream about you, us. So as usual, you were the first thing on my mind. I love waking up this way yet it kills me at the same time. As I prepare for a long day of work, I think about you as I go through my routine. It reminds me of your routine and how I used to join you in your changing room while you would prepare for the day or our nights out together. Remember how I used to sit on your sink counter and admire your beauty? It's funny, sometimes the littlest things break me down - Last night, I needed to trim that one pesky eye-brow hair I have and it reminded me of how you would pull my face close to you and do it for me after you finished perfecting your own.
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It's funny how a persons quirks, habits, idiosyncrasies can go from endearing and adorable to a point where they seem almost high maintenance and then when that person is gone, you realize that those are the little things that make people fall in love. I love you for every last little thing you ever did. I always have and I always will.
I know that we are where we are for reasons that don't make sense or can be blamed on people or predicaments but I can tell you, honestly, even though I live a life that doesn't feel as if it were my destiny, I was guided here for some reason and I'm sure one day it will make sense to me or you or the world. My soul tells me that some day, our paths will be crossed again, whether in this life or the next and when we do meet again, the timing will be right. You and I both know that we were meant to have our paths cross and I'm sure you would agree that for some odd reason, it was just the when and not the why that is what ruined us.
I go back and reread our messages and texts and still have every last picture and trinket from our time together. Reminiscing with these makes me feel so loved and fortunate to have had you so close to me and for you to have been such a huge part of my life for the time we were together. It's why I always say, as I told you on so many occasions, I love you, always and forever. That was not a random thought or statement.... That was a truth that I spoke and will never take back until I am no more.... Always and forever.